Well I screwed it up. I had a damn soda today. Wild-Cherry Pepsi to be to be brutally honest. I don't even know what I was thinking when I filled it up. I stopped at Subway and got a somewhat health conscious sandwich and a low-fat bag of chips. I kept telling myself I was going to get iced-tea or juice instead of a soda. Obviously it completely slipped my mind when I actually went to fill up the cup.
I'm not killing myself over it though. If anything it was a learning experience in that:
- Old habits die hard. The truth of the matter is that I did not consciously realize what I was doing. I instinctively grabbed Wild-Cherry Pepsi because out of the choices that were there, that is what I would normally have picked. It didn't even phase me that I had done that until I was already back at work, sitting at my desk and almost done with the drink. It dawned on me at that time that I was doing my normal routine.
- There is a physical effect. Once I realized what I had done, it occurred to me that I was wide awake, I felt alive, I felt refreshed. Up until that time there was no noticeable difference in how I felt just drinking water, but once I had the soda, I felt comfortable and awake. Maybe it was the caffeine, maybe it was the sugar, maybe it was the carbonation. It doesn't matter what it was though, the point is that there was a GOOD feeling that I had associated with the problem.
- Trying to fix it sucks after you've screwed up. The truth of the matter is that I had messed up and trying to go back to the water afterward really sucks. I was fine beforehand. I woke up, had my usual cup of coffee and kept the water at my side the rest of the time. I never even thought twice about it, but the second that soda hit my mouth, that all changed. I didn't want water anymore. Granted, I'm aware that most of this is psychological and am not giving in again. The water is back at my side and is taking precedence over anything else.
Here's to the success of the rest of the day!
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